Six years ago
today I married my ANSWER TO PRAYER, Robert.
I was entering my mid-30's and I wasn't married yet. I was the eldest of three and all were
happily married but me! I remember
taking a dating sabbatical after a gut retching break up and thank God I
did. Because without taking the time to
heal and trust the Lord I would have never been ready for Robert. I would have been injured and forever
victimized, or so I thought. I dove deep into counseling, wanting to know
myself more deeply and completely!
I entered a honeymoon
period with the Lord and even planned an actual HONEYMOON with just me and the
Lord. So I sailed away for a week on a Caribbean
cruise. Most of my friends thought I was
insane yet those who knew me best, knew it was just what the doctor
ordered! I set sail off the coast of
Florida just me and the Lord in a beautiful honeymoon suite! Everywhere I looked were blissful newlyweds
and I was freshly out of a 3 year relationship with a man whom I thought was
the one! I ate my meals alone and
dressed up every night and went to the breathtaking ballroom to dine at a 12
person table, just God and me! The
people who sat at the tables around me felt sorry for me FOR SURE! Some people invited me to dine with them and
their families. I giggled and thankfully
declined their offer.
The next day I
remember deciding to stay in my room all day and night. Worshipping and
spending some REAL time with the Lord! I
was sunbathing on my balcony on the very rear of the ship and can recall the
water being very choppy, windy with LOTS of rain. During this cruise Katrina was hitting the
Louisiana coastline and I was none the wiser!
I stood at the edge of my balcony and shouted, "Lord, I love you SO
MUCH! (As I began to cry with intense emotion!) God I trust you with my heart
and my future! Lord, you said in your
word that if you care for the birds of the air and feed them then how much more
do you care for me!! Well Lord I want to
feel you! I want to know that I am more
special to you than the birds of the air"!
Suddenly the rain stopped and out of NO WHERE and very small bird
appeared tweeting away singing a song that instantly brought me to my
knee! I wept as that little bird sang
and sang over me! Still weeping I stood
up with my face facing up to the heavens, arms out stretched and eyes closed
and the rain began to fall again with such power that it was hurting my
skin! I began to dance and spin celebrating God's love for me! Some would have called me CRAZY and others
would have witnessed the sweetest move of the Lord! I walked back into my room dried of and fell
to sleep!
That next morning
I woke up with a new zeal, a new song on my heart! I was complete again! The wrongs and words that were said against
me where erased! The hurt seemed like a vague
memory and the details where foggy! If
you have ever asked if God could erase hurt and bad memories let me tell you He
CAN! I watched those newlyweds be close
and giggly and it tickled my heart where a few days before I was broken and
would have to turn away!
A few months
later I met Robert! We dated for a few
months, engaged for 2 and quickly married! And through this marriage God has become more
present! My relationship with him has intensified
in ways I can't explain! These short 6
years has brought happiness, hope, joy, victory, heartache, loss, doubt, desperation,
challenges, financial woes, death, blessing, strength, courage, tenacity,
laughter and SO MUCH MORE!
If you were to
tell us 6 years ago that we'd go through all of that we would have laughed at
you! And yet we are STRONGER for
it! And we know that there's still more
challenges and TONS of victories yet to celebrate! And so we pray for God's way to be demonstrated
in our marriage! And for you that are
yet to be married we pray GOD'S BEST for you!
That you be all about your relationship with HIM and let HIM show up and
show off! And for those of you marrieds
out there we pray that you remain resilient and fortified making HIM your core
and standing fast on HIS word because it NEVER come back void!
So
Happy Anniversary to you Robert Lainez!
My love grows deeper still and our future is forever in the Master’s
hands!
XOXOXO
Stephanie Lainez
Author/Speaker/Mommy-SuperHero
www.mystoryhousebooks.com